01 March 2012
Tales of Touched Out Mommy
It's been a tough past few weeks for us. Both boys were sick with a couple of different things. And Jake and I have both been dealing with Seasonal Affective Disorder.
The boys have grown to the point where having all four of us in our queen size bed means that Jake and I don't sleep. So more often than not one or both boys wind up literally on top of me. And Aedyn's "security blanket" is my hair, I've been trying to wean him off playing with it, because it's getting pretty painful when he doesn't realize he's pulling on it in his sleep. (As he's been taking his lightsaber to bed every night and then bringing into our bed, I'm hoping he can transition to that soon!)
Jaron has been trying to get his molars in and is wanting to nurse constantly. I don't mind the nursing so much, but Aedyn is not handling Jaron getting so much attention very well. Fortunately he's not acting out, he's just always right on top of me and climbing all over me.
Both boys have also gotten off schedule and been taking late naps, which means they're not actually falling asleep for the night until midnight-ish. Some nights I've still been trying to get Jaron down when Jake comes home at night (he closes the restaurant 3 nights a week and doesn't get home til after midnight).
The past few days have been the worst. I don't want anyone touching me, looking at me, or talking to me.
At times I think if I hear "Mommy!" one more time I think I'm just going to implode. I hate that holding my babies has become a chore to just get through and that I just try and tolerate my hubby's hugs and kisses because I don't want to hurt his feelings by telling him to leave me alone.
I took a couple hours this morning and just got out of the house before Jake had to be at work, and I'm hoping I can get the boys to sleep early enough that I have a couple hours then too. And I'm just hanging on til Sunday; after church & lunch I'm going into hiding.
I'm desperately trying to get touched in and back to enjoying cuddling again. They grow up too fast for me to be missing out!
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